What I Didn’t Know Then
Hello. Welcome to my blog. Per usual, coffee, tea, and donuts are set out on the side table. Help yourselves.
Today I would like to talk about a few things. First, for those of you who don’t know, I’ve finally sent out queries for my novel, Love’s Prophecy. Yay for me! LOL, took me long enough, but I wanted to make sure I had my MS, query, and synopsis as polished as “I” could get them. I guess time will tell.
Since I have queries out in the great wide world, I’ve finally started my second novel in the series. Another yay for me, hehehehe. And this brings me to the topic I’d like to discuss.
The title to my blog says: What I didn’t know then. What I mean by this is what I didn’t know back when I wrote the rough draft for my first novel was in a strange way a blessing.
Okay, let me explain further. As I’m writing my second novel, I’m having a rough time...well, writing. I know who my characters are, what they need to do, the conflict, most of the middle, the climax, and the resolution. I know more about what it takes to write a book this time around. I know the first chapter should JUMP OFF THE PAGE AND SMACK THE READER IN THE FACE! I know what deep point of view is—LOL, or maybe I should say I know what point of view is this time. I know how to sprinkle back story effectively. I know not to clutter my writing with unnecessary words. I know not to start too many sentences with a gerund because that screams amateur. I’ll stop the list here because it could go on and on.
So, if I know all of this, then why in the world am I having a bitch of a time writing? I’ll tell you what I think the problem is.
When I decided to write way back when, I didn’t know anything! I mean I knew nothing about writing. All I knew was I needed to write this story. I lived and breathed writing. And after three months, I had a completed rough draft. The sad thing was I didn’t even know it was called a rough draft.
I didn’t worry about passive, telling/showing, which word was best, etc, etc. My characters spoke to me so damn loud and I simply wrote what they told me.
In essence, I didn’t have an internal editor—okay, I did but she was dormant.
Now that my internal editor has been woken up I can’t seem to shut her off. With each sentence I write in my new WIP I agonize over word choice, sentence structure, passive, active…grrrrrr, it’s driving me nuts! All I want is for her to go back to sleep and allow me to listen to my characters and just WRITE! Is that too much to ask?
You know what it reminds me of? It reminds me of when I was little and the intense excitement I felt Christmas Eve night. And now that I’m older, I miss those days terribly. Well, I miss those days of writing when I was clueless. The pure innocence, the way I could pound out two chapters a day! Sure, I had a ton of edits later, but as the old saying goes, you can’t edit blank pages.
Have any of you gone through this?
Until next month, happy writing.