Reflecting.

I can't believe we're already nearing the end of February. Next month marks birthday number three for my son. Really? I swear I just had him like yesterday. Time keeps flying.

This past week, my husband, son and I took a trip to Texas for a week. i was born in El Paso and lived there a total of twelve years. It's where I have many memories growing up. I spend many days at my Oma and Opa's house. (my grandparents). Now that I'm older and a mother, I love going back with my little one so that he can have some memories there just like I do.

It was a relaxing, nice vacation. No work for hubby, no stress for me, and plenty of affection and fun for my son. I got to spend time with family, visit with old friends, go to the movies, eat out, lounge in the Jacuzzi at my aunt's house. I tell you, come Saturday, I really didn't want to leave.

Though the vacation was wonderful, I did get a bit of startling and sad news. While spending time with two of my best friends- I've known one since elementary school, and the other in junior high-, we started talking about people I knew, and how things turned out for some of them. the name of my first serious boyfriend came up, and I found out that he passed away a little over four years ago. I was very upset by this news. He was so young, only 25 when he died. We'd been back in touch that year, thanks to social networking, and we'd been emailing and calling back and forth for months until I could no longer get a hold of him. It had been nice, especially with how things were in my life personally. We were young back then, and though of course we'd broken up, I never forgot about him and he was never far from my mind. Young love, it really was. I'd always wondered why he stopped writing. Now I know. He'd had a long struggle with diabetes, and apparently, the disease got the better of him. His life ending at a young age, it got me thinking about life, and how much we take for granted. No matter how much we don't mean to, I think in ways, many of us do.

We put things off because we say we have tomorrow. Things don't get done. Dreams don't get chased. Fears get the better of us and we stay in our comfort zones. To a point, that might be an okay thing. It is a crazy world out there. I struggle daily to get what I want done. I don't always take the time for what really matters. Things like this really put things into perspective, and Ii've decided to really make an effort to go where I want to go in life. I have a lot of things I'd love to do, and yet I sometimes find myself making reasons why I'm not.

No More.


Even if it's just a day at a time.

Take a deep breath. Focus. Plunge.

I will see you all in March, and thank you for stopping by. Ir helped to write our how I feel.

Nikki Barrett